11 Stor3y to Hell

my intuition puzzles me .

2008-03-19T07:53:00.000-07:00

maybe its maybe its my environment somehow i feel as if my space is getting cramped . i just feel like pushing my troubles away and just leave everything to get some time to think. my friends are the true things i have now losing them is never a choice but well sometimes people do change. i have been quite sensitive lately . Any insult ill take it to heart but what to do . My family thinks as if ill be the family embarrassment source. Its kill me to inside my family have thoughts of me until like dat. Ill show them ill get thaat o level cert with something better than any of my siblings. Faith is cruel dont you agree? it is to me . Lucky is too . Just when things are going well something sure to happen . i have this feeling that god is punishing me for sins i have committed if he is than i will accept it . Friends come and go they say but 6 of this people well 4 currently to me will be treasured by me . If ever they need help ill be there . I cant seem to talk to 3 ppl about problems i have nowadays only 1 of them truely is an optimistic person. Skate,Skate and Skate thoughts i have in my mind now . Cause when i skated no one ever stop me ..

A dagger is my hearts friend right about now . They going to be reunited soon if i cant carry on .
Stab , Stab and Stab. It grows closer and closer to me that death is the only thing right about now . Secrets are no longer safe and promises are meant to be broken . The son u thought u had is gone for the face of this earth . The friend u thought u could talk to is gone and he may never come back . Leave this earth and take tis soul as its not right for this future to be ever bright once more . Leave this kid alone and let him be in peace cause right about now he feel like slashing his wrist

2007-11-14T05:17:00.000-08:00

Wohoooo ! Blogs Uppp.. Wafa.. So Many things to talk to bout but must rilek . Ini Suma le Rilek ... Tmrw Will start Posting YEEEEHA!

2007-09-21T01:34:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!! im back so happy today .. I thought for sure Mr Syamsul would like say something bad about me but no he said good thing i was like 10 in class which mean SWENSENS here i come baby .. xD . She called me and i told she was like screaming at the top of her lungs xD . Yeah now looking for courses i reallly hope i make it to O s so im praying hard and studying hard . I hope i get the job at alvron also xD . Till later BYE

2007-09-14T01:55:00.000-07:00

today drowning in embarassment to the extend i couldnt breathe . yeah so yes i was called out because i skip lessons yesterday but its worth it ;D. i was sure they wouldnt call my name out cause i manage to escape so many times before but yet of all person they had to call they call my name first from the whole batch . wow to add to the embarassment i tripped sia .. yeah she must be very angry with me proably but how no point crying of spilt milk .. yeah not int he mood today to talk or wat im still worried one wat she will say if she calls me if she boycott me she has the right to .. Today preety much like my fav subject maths and physics yummy . I did the whole paper though i tot it was a waste of time ... So yeah today breaking fast mummy told me its fried rice with salted fish .. DELICIOUS ...

I hurt her . I knew this was going to happen i can never keep a girl in my heart so long . Why did i listen to all this i promise i trust but see wat i done if she proably hates me now i dont blame and i blame myself . RUMOrS stop stop Oh just stop saying bad things of her maybe i should just ignore wat people say instead of beliving this i should stand up for her shes the one and only person i depend on and know i do this to her . Im sorry i dont blame me if u want me to leave ur life forever . I dont blame u if u want me to forget that u exist . i dont blame me if u dont wanna talk to me

2007-09-13T05:20:00.000-07:00

yeah today very interesting day . went home with nad and half way through we saw like naqiah .. walk home and like nad keep saying the same thing over and over again i think i earn it la shouldnt have say that to her SORRY cuzzie .. Yeah while walking home with her i manage to study lower sec science abit .. Niwae while walking home alone i think i saw nafiah so i praticaly met like the na siblings . :D .. Nothing happen so much today i just sit at home working on Do You think(new song) . and trying to learn guardian angel .. yeah till tomorow okay ZHAO

2007-09-12T03:40:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah i finish my chem prelim . mrs sia ask us to buy the 10 years series and yeah we were suppose to buy it from her but being the responsible student i was i bought myself . Anyway Today actually fun la if i were to rate it i will like give it 6 out of 10 . know why ? i finally saw nad at skol but she look different seh . we rarely talk in skol now somehow i see her drift away from me . Got to know nad like this year i would never forget that day sia
Karreme : sial la perumpuan sec 2 cute siol.
Zai : ah ah sial .. Macam pompuan tu * pointed at nad*
Karreme : itu nadhirah siol tak salah adik angkat Nabila
Zai : ooo
Karreme : eh mana dia pergi siol
*nad sprang up*
Nad : hello ur karreme right?do you know salihin
Karreme : Yeah i do
Nad : do you know i am ur cousin
*karreme Remains Puzzled*
Karreme : Oh really *nods blurly*
Nad : Bye

yeah thats how we met . since she came into my life everything change i became more happy . Yeah u can say that she is like an angel or something .. Haiz i seriously dun want to lose her sia
anyway back to my day i finish chem with 10 mins to spare i finished skol and went out to opposite and eat there . it was i think 11.30 when i decided to go home and makan bath and wait till 1.30 then i walked to skol and yeah i managed to reach there in 10 mins WOHOOO!! . yeah i saw zilah and wats her name arh... o ya aishah or something decided to call zilah and wanted to ask her where nad was but proably i was talking to soft i waited til like 2.30 when my sis call telling me to wait at the bus stop as she was going to follow me to popular to buy my chem 10 years series . yeah so shucks never got to wait for her .. niwae went too play soccer with sadam they all so fun i finally can shoot with my left leg . Yeah while playing soccer she called and told me that she had remedial and she came out of skol only at 4.30 like dat .. She promise to calll me later i hope shee keeps it ... im going to the pasar malam with rafie , dan and hopefully yan .. Yeah fasting month tomorow so yeah must catch up alot .. I hope i can save money during the fasting month i wanna get that viola bass .. Yeah if anything interesting happen i will write in again
Its like 6.58 and im siGNING off
Karreme a.k.a Puffer fish

2007-09-11T01:14:00.000-07:00

Fourth POST ;O .. cool niwae yeah came home nice nice at 1 pm i finish skol at 11.50 a.m but only reach home at 1 well actually i have a reason i hung out with Fahmi Derrick they all .. Though of waiting for Nad but nevermind la she says she wanna go out with her Friend Zilah and hmm Aishah i think her name is . Today no fun at all I sit home playing with asyraff yeah for the first time i played catching with him for like 2 hours .. As the day goes by I find myself thinking on wat exactly is wrong with me nowadays I often find myself just staring into space thinking ... Yeah abit emo-ish dont u think ... Today was fine Physics was the first paper today and it was like easy to me i dunnoe if i could still pass or fail the exam im beggining to love science and like in the nick of time . Chemistry okay la i just hate balancing the chemicals .. I need ask my bro to help me but he is in NS. Today was such an awful day nothing happen la .. It just me going skol exam break then exam then leave the skol same old .

Yeah i finally mastered face down on bass .. Was more to emoing myself after 1 inside my room . My break was like me eating Nasi Lemak la then i waited praying Nad came down but she didnt show up . I saw her like one bench away i could just went straight to her and say hello but noooo i had to think more about my friends .. Fuck It i feel like just going to her tomorow and say Hello There cause tomorow is like the last day cause thursday fasting start already wat to do .. Yeah its like 4.31 p.m now and hopefully if something interesting happen im gonna post it later .. Oh YEAH if Nad's readiing this we need to take photo together and if u wanna cut ur hair DONT wait until we take photo .. :D Well Here i go

2007-09-10T03:45:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah today was the worst first day of skol of my life possibly because i had like NO ONE to hang out with ... Finished skol like at 12.50 and only reach home like till 1.15 like dat .. Its confirmed that as the days progress on im getting more bored than ever. Went home with like linesh and we talked till like i had to drop off. i reach first thing i do u know wat? Play my ps2 and went back to skol at like 2.50 i also dunnoe for wat i went there just to study but yet i couldnt foccuss . i left skol at 4 then straight away took the bus home .. FINALLY i wasnt bored it was like when i saw Rafie msging me to meet him and yan .. yeah as usual we went to 11th storey to hang out . Then like while on our way home we met Dan and yes we hang out with him ... yes for the first time of my life i miss going to religious class. On the way home like my dad saw me and scolded me la .. aiya to him its like clean clean he doesnt even care how i want my room to be arranged . at skol like had exam and once puzzled at why for the first time in my life i had no time to finish my D&T paper tsk tsk tsk .. Yeah i saw ZamZila(artistet) and i thought of like saying hi to her but nevermind .. Okay she tied her hair it looks so cool .

I never saw her the whole day sia .. Nevermind la still go other day niwae she like call me then i told her to wait for a while then when i talk to her she had to call me back . how sad? very sad wooooo ... I swore this was the week i said hi to a girl in skol but i still dun have the gusts to such a coward aren't I? Wah Must thank My kakak ila for lending me her laptop must buy her choclate yeah now im like po kai flat .. the 15 dollars i had from selling the computer finished . now saving to get my daddy a birthday gift(if i save up in time) . Fasting month around the corner so im like trying to eat twice a day only .. yeah i hope she calls me tonight or else i will be really bored before i sleep . Aiya must find new blogskin oso la this one so plain ... Yeah if anything cool happens i will write later .. Till now Seeya SayurCarrot :D

2007-09-08T20:36:00.000-07:00

Woke up like at 9.30 and i knew i was gonna be LATE so i never went to my silat class . Mummy made delicious curry bread and i ate like 2 of them and planning to eat 2 more later x) . AND HOR! Nad called me so happy to pick it up . We talk for like 5 mins and i went to the shop hopping she call but no she didnt ! . Maybe I will write more later :D .. Well here i am .. niwae yes i notice that nowadays everyones getting bored .. Niwae tomorow i meeting dan proably at 11 storey if he wants to meet me and obviously i need to meet Rafie to past him his share of chocolate . Niwae me , Dan , Rafie and Rian are getting close hahaha might be destiny cause we like hang out alot .. niwae 4 of us formed a band like call 11 STOREY TO HELL . Yeah2 songs writing going damn well but we still covering songs .. Face down going well . Yeah tomorow skol siolzlzxzxz i hate it but most of all i get to see PEOPLE . YEAH IM GOING OFF NOW ... For Reall xD .. Take Care ... Peace

XDD

2007-09-08T06:35:00.000-07:00

Hoho . Finally got this STUPID blog to work yeah abit gay aint it ... i know dun have to tell me.
OH YEAH I MISS TALKING TO HER . Cuzzie where'd u go i miss u so ... niwae this is all i got to write hopefully i can like post thing on this blog often then the 12 blogs i have well thats exagerrating .. Niwae Till Then HOPEFULLY